I Searched For My Star - Michael Jackson

"My game taught me a lot about the night sky, but I was growing up. The whole idea of having my own star faded, and it was hard to remember if I had ever chosen one in the end. People began to tell me that the word "star" meant something quite different. I half believed them, then one night I was tossing in bed, hurt and worried. My heart felt heavy with troubles. Stumbling to my feet, I looked out the window. Thick clouds masked the midnight sky. No stars!

I trembled to think of a world without stars. No guide for the sailor to trust at sea, no jewels to dazzle our sense of beauty, no hunter pointing to the next horizon, no lovely ladies trailing perfume to heaven's ballroom. But all around the globe, the air is so dirty and the lights from the cities are so bright that for some people few stars can be seen anymore. A generation of children may grow up seeing a blank sky and asking, "Did there used to be stars there?"

Let's give them back the sky and let's do it now - before it's too late. I'm going to search for my star until I find it. It's hidden in the drawer of innocence, wrapped in a scarf of wonder. I'll need a map to tell me which hole it should fill, and that will be a small one. But there are nearly five billion of us on earth, and we all need the sky. Find your star and throw it up to heaven. You still have it, don't you?"

-Michael Jackson-

I thanked Michael for sharing his thought when I realized that I almost (or I had) lost my shining star in the sky. But now I see you amongst the stars, you're the brightest star that shine, like the Pole Star that guided the three majestic kings; And your words that guides me in every step on my life.

Every day and every night I walk home after done with my- 8-to-9-working hours, I always look up to the scattered stars... I'm looking for you.. I'm searching for you.. I'm drawing you... and I'd find a smiling face that says,
"It's ok, love, Be tough... I've been there, and even worst than you, remember, but I've made it... As long you have a strong faith and believe in God and His love, I know you'll be ok,"

I'd ended up smiling, and thank God for giving me a piece of you in my heart.

Michael, you've made me more child-like, more creative, more sensitive, more loving, more and more positive impacts in my life. I said to myself: 'If a human being, one person that once lived in this unkind-world can survived to keep spreading his message of LOVE, then why can't I...?'

Thank you my Lord, you've sent us a true warrior of life, an angel of light, a faithful human being: one of a kind Michael Joseph Jackson.



The Angelic Michael Jackson

I didn’t knew the meaning of feeling lost,
Until one day I read a post
God has called my Angel of Love

It was then became to realize
The affect of a pure heart
When my soul screaming in silence
And my heart burning in fire

No louder pain could even bear
The affliction of losing an Angel without wings
So sudden that only speechless left to said
And tears become so worthless to waste,

Dear Michael,
I’m letting my heart hurting me
Cause it seems nothing couldn’t be more right
I’m letting the darkness entering my life
Cause the darkness has become a beautiful art

I’m drawing you in every star in the night
To keep me alive with your Angel’s light
Until one night you’ll be one of those shooting stars
That gives me hope to shade my scars



are the tears..
dried by time..
Like a winter sigh,
in the Autumn fall..


Movie: Michael Jackson's Life

After his passed, I wonder if Michael Jackson's lifetime story was a movie and he was the leading actor... then I would ask God, as the producer and director, a few questions,

"Where did you found this magnificent person?!!"

"Hm.. Did You taught him about life-endurance before? Because it seems this movie has the most long-hours movie ever!!"

"When did he took his break or day-off? He looks like had worked all day and night, and never got a chance to take a rest, You know.."

"And this probably my last question, Weren't you push him too hard in this lifetime movie? Well, someone needs a vacation after doing such an overtime-work for many years, right..?"

"Owh, sorry, I still have one more question, is there anyone like him in this Earth? We need someone exactly like him, the Planet Earth need him.. and Me...,I need him..."

"By the way, I love every scenes of him, marvelous job!! From the family conflicts with the awards achievements he had received, then the press abused him, Neverland and those children - [this is amusing!] Owh, also the trials he has gone through, and his lil' family with Prince, Paris and Blanket [this is really touching...] And don't forget all the conspiracies he had to deal with, the vicious system and unkind world..

WAIT, I kinda confuse here, Are you making a warrior movie? hm.. I guess not.. drama? ~ It must be more than just an ordinary drama or soup opera, right? ... Hm, romantic-kind of movie? comedy? owh, thriller? ok, I'm lost here...

I might say it's A Story of a Living Angel.."

Michael J. Jackson for me..

Some see him as an icon,
his songs viewed in many themes around the world,
and his moves recognized as the best dancing ever...

For me...
his words that motivates me every morning I wake up,
his dedication that encourages to keep doing my work fully to the utmost..
his attitude inspires my thoughts and behavior,
his concrete actions that encourage me to do something nice everyday,
his ‘child-like’ that opens my mind to simply just being human,
his heart that taught me about LOVE as an universal sentences…
...and his smiling face that always comfort me..

Thank you, Lovely Michael…
Thank you for being you...
Thank you for your LOVE..